Ramblings

I know it has been a long time since I have posted anything, sorry. Most of you probably quit checking it by now and are fed up with my lack of motivation. Sorry, I have just been busy working lately.

I talked to Adam again last night. He came home yesterday instead of today and I don't think I am going to get to see him at all, not even the day he leaves, which is June 17th. Talking to him on the phone is good and bad, because I like hearing his voice, but I also know that it means I am that much closer to the last time I will hear his voice for a year. I also probably won't get to see him on the day he leaves because his girlfriend has a major complex and is basically a dumb bitch about everything. So much for him having a mind of his own. Not even Silas can get Adam out of her grasp, he's tried. It's too bad, because let's face it, she isn't cute at all, and she has fat arms.

So this past weekend was one of the most orgasmic times of my life! The Huskers became Region Champs at Haymarket, beating the University of Illinois-Chicago on Friday, Creighton on Saturday, and then again on Sunday. I HATE Creighton. And no I know what you guys are all thinking and I do not hate Creighton because of HER. I hate Creighton for the pure and simple reason that Creighton sucks. On Saturday a bunch of people booed Colin Shockey when he was up to bat and some stupid Creighton fan was like, "Have some class." She then proceeded to talk shit about those of us who booed him to her equally as bitchy friend. That's not showing much class either, but hey, all I pretty much said was, "Whatever bitch, Creighton fans are ten times worse than Husker fans whenever we play at Rosenblatt in Omaha so shut your stupid mouth you dumb bitch." I was not going to take any shit from some stupid Omaha bitch. I don't think I know a single decent person from Omaha aside from my Sisters. There are a few here and there, but otherwise Omaha basically blows ass and sucks ass at the same time. I guess everyone has to have a talent. Ah well. On the plus side, I got a picture taken with Jesse Boyer after we won Regions on Sunday. He's gorgeous, and that's nice.

The bad part about this weekend is my friends from Indiana did not come because while they have the ability to talk to me about the weekend, they unfortunately do not know how to communicate to one another. Not a huge deal, Buttons just knows he is on my shit list until he makes it up to me, so all is well. And Zach has pretty much been non-existent, but everyone is busy and shit happens.

Kayleen and I have a few cute little surprises planned for Teetz's birthday and I of course can not say them here because Teetz reads this, but let's just say for once he won't be annoyed by something I do, because it's his 21st birthday and I am going to be completely and totally nice to him the whole day. I will not say one word about banging his brother, there will be no 'no penis' jokes, no' your mom' jokes, nothing. I will not utter the phrase 'cockblock' at any time during the day, and so on. Now that I read that list, I realize I should in general probably be nicer anyway. But he says mean stuff to me too, so I can at least give him one day. I know we're going out to dinner on his actual birthday, the 16th, but he has not chosen a place yet and if he doesn't soon, then Kayleen and I might just have to choose for him. I am so going to choose Chuck E Cheese. Gross. Ha ha.

Some guys are such mindfucks and it drives me nuts, but in a good way. I thought we moved out of the name-calling and arm-punching as flirting tools when we moved into middle school, but I guess not. Sadly, I still think it is cute. Maybe not so sadly, cuz that's kind of how I operate sometimes too. Either way, sometimes I wish a guy would just have the guts to say, "Hey, let's go out to dinner sometime." If we're both so obvious in our flirting that other people notice it, then it's about time someone does something about it. On the other hand, we're both just flirts anyway, so it might mean nothing. I haven't decided yet. I am being picky these days, don't want to end up with a dud, literally or figuratively.

I went to that Mongolian grill place tonight with Teetz, Brett, and Drake. It was decent but not worth the price. I don't know, maybe I just wasn't hungry. I haven't been again lately and it's kind starting to worry me again. I think it partially has to do with Adam and him leaving but it feels different this time, it's bigger, beyond him, even beyond my control anymore. Oh well, I'll jump that hurdle when I get to it.

On Monday at work, one of the nicest things ever happened to me and it left me feeling kind of sad, because in all honesty, I realized what a horrible person I am. Back in the first week I started working at Office Depot, this nice older gentleman came in to make copies, he usually does a couple times a week. He is a regular of course so he knew I was a new cashier and was asking me questions about school and my major and everything. I told him I was el ed and he mentioned his wife had co-authored a book entitled, 'Resources for Creative Teaching in Early Childhood Education'. He said I should check it out and see if it would be helpful. Well, I looked at it online and then at Barnes and Noble special ordered it because it really seemed like it would help me, there were great ideas in it. Then I found out it was over one hundred dollars which kinda made me put on the brakes a little. Well, on Monday I got a phone call at work, and it was the man, Harold, asking how long I would be at work because he had some copies to make and he wanted to give me a copy of the book. I honestly could not believe it. This man, who barely knew me at all, was giving me this incredible gift. I know a lot of you are probably going, 'Oh big deal, it's a book', but it's not just the book itself, but the act of generosity surrounding it. He did not have to do this, and what means even more is that it has his wife's name in it and on several pages she had marked things where changes need to be made, etc. She passed away a few years ago and he said that he knew I was someone who could get a lot of use out of it and that she would not want it to just sit on a shelf collecting dust. I was just so amazed that people like him exist, I almost started crying. And not because I'm a big crybaby, but because it was one of the nicest things someone has ever done for me. I felt like such an awful person after that because I have never done anything to deserve this, he did this because he wanted to and that's the kind of person I do want to be; the kind who does stuff for other people because they want to, not because of any kind of gain they might receive. And the book is amazing, there is a lot I will be able to use when I student teach even, and when I have my own classroom too. Wow. That's all, just wow.

Days til Teetz is legal: 7!

Star Wars

On Wednesday Teetz, Jake and his girlfriend, and I went and saw Star Wars. Now, I really really loved Star Wars 4, 5, and 6. LOVED THEM. Not in the creepy dressing up like the characters and not bathing kind of way, and I think it had a lot to do with Harrison Ford, but I liked them a lot. I really did not like Phantom Menace, thus I did not see the second one, the name of which I do not even remember. Something about clones. Whatever. Anyway, because I am dependent and clingy (with Teetz only at least) we all went to the final installment. Now, the dialogue was choppy and Natalie Portman was really lame, but I think I am in love with Hayden Christensen. Well, his delivery was also very choppy, so maybe I could just look at him and he wouldn't have to speak, ever. Hopefully he isn't really like that in real life. I don't know, this is the first thing I have ever seen him in, and in the scene after he'd killed all the separatist leader guys and he turned and the cloak was half covering his face and his eyes were glowing, WOW. That was the moment I told Teetz the exact words: 'Hayden Christensen can be my baby's daddy'. He was that gorgeous. Teetz just shook his head. I think it's the whole bad-boy thing, because let's face it, he is kind of the ultimate bad guy, I mean, for cryin' out loud, he becomes DARTH VADER. That kind of makes me sound like one of the Star Wars geeks who surrounded us at the movie. One girl was wearing a shirt that said 'I love the dark side'. I wanted to give her a make-over. Of course though, I will have to have the whole set when it comes out, just because, but not for a long long time. I am not going to rush out and buy it the moment it is released, but eventually. The point is this: 'Hayden Christensen' and 'sideways' are two words I would use together in a sentence. Most of you have probably even heard me say it already, thus it needs no explanation.

Next weekend two of my friends from Wabash are coming. I pretty much have been bugging Buttons to come out here for a while, so he and Zach are. It'll be fun, I hope, although it occurred to me after we started getting the details worked out that Lincoln is not always a whole lot of fun unless you're 21, which Zach is not. I suppose I can just throw a party at Teetz's apartment, I know he won't mind ;). In fact, I kind of already started telling a couple people, and if I haven't told you yet, I may or may not, you'll just have to wait and see.

The Huskers dropped their first game in the Big 12 tourney, so we're in the losers bracket. We lost to Texas Tech, then beat Oklahoma. We are playing Tech again as I write this, because they lost to Missouri and it's 0-0. I'm hoping we can fix the big mistake from round 1 and win the championship. Then we'd almost 100% for sure host a regional. However, even that probably is not for sure because the NCAA just seems to hate Nebraska. Doesn't matter what sport, they just don't like us. I guess the fact that we were at one time good at football makes lots of people jealous. I don't see anyone dogging Oklahoma or USC the way they talk shit about us though, but whatever, we can't help we're better than everyone. Especially Oklahoma. I hate Bob Stoops.

Days til Teetz is legal: 19!

I like boys in baseball pants...

...especially if they are named Alex Gordon. Man, does that boy look good in those pants. This past weekend the Huskers hosted Baylor and we took the series 2-1. It was fun, though I, Teetz, and Jake are extremely sunburned. In fact, Jake is so sunburned that later on that night, no one wanted to stand by him because he was actually emitting that much heat. His new name should be Lobster Boy. Or something. I really enjoy college baseball, despite the fact that the baseball players I have met are jackasses, with few exceptions. I have never been a fan of pro baseball, nor have I ever been able to watch it on tv unless the Yankees are playing - it's something about Jeter in pinstripes that gets me every time. Oh, and Jason Giambi is absolutely gorgeous. Back to the Huskers though: I just like sitting outside, watching a game, there's just something about sunny afternoons and being outside. I also like sunflower seeds, that's a major plus. They always seem to taste better when you're watching baseball. I think it's a childhood thing.

Days til Teetz is legal: 51